I Want My Man Back...

Have you ever done something so stupid in your life that you wish you could just turn round the clock and take it all back or crawl underneath the ground and just disappear?

I have hurt the only man I have ever loved. No excuses could justify my foolish behavior. I had been a crazy and naughty bitch. I wouldn't like to call it cheating as I never had any feelings for the man I fooled around with. I was curious and gave in to temptation. It was merely a shot for thrills, a last ditch effort at flirtation before I tie the knot. Nevertheless, it shattered him when he found out and I could only accept the worst punishment he could ever bestow upon me.

It was so painful to bear knowing  that I have broken his heart, because he never deserved it. As much as he tries to smile at me and say 'I Love You' to me, I know deep down and it reflects in his eyes, that he is terribly hurting inside. How I wish I could take all his pain away! I would do ANYTHING to bring back the joy to his handsome eyes and the laughter to his smile.

I'm not asking for forgiveness because I never deserved one. Yet, I pray that we'll be able to surpass this. I guess the passage of time can only help us heal the wounds at this moment. I hope someday that he would believe again that I truly love him and that I always will. He's the only man for me and I doubt if I could ever love the same magnitude with another man. There's only one HIM in this world. We're two halves of the same soul. I'd die if I lose him...

I want him back and I vow to succeed. As Scarlett O'Hara  had said in Gone With the Wind, "I'll go home, and I'll think of some way to get him back! After all, tomorrow is another day!"